I was choosing which tape I was going to use tonight, and I was doubting between Exploration of Sleep (I've been trying again and again with that one; I’m kind of stuck) and some kind of “external thought” (if even that’s possible????) kept insisting on listening to Free Flow of F10, and oh boy, was whatever that was right.
Fell into F10 quite quickly (I had had some kind of trouble the last weeks) and EVEN THOUGH I put my fear of seeing scary things and my intrusive thoughts in the ECB, I started seeing them. It all started with not creepy but unsettling faces (similar to the greek masks for drama). But then, I was seeing three of them. Repeating. And each time, they were bigger, closer, and scarier. I kept repeating to myself that I was in control and that I was a being of pure energy and light that could not be harmed (btw I had no idea about this lol, it just came to me). They kept being scarier and closer to me, like they were going to harm me, but suddenly, they disappeared.
After that, I had something or someone help me. I have a lot of trouble having an OBE (I just cannot do it, and I’ve tried a LOT of different ways. If anyone wants to help me, I’ll accept any kind of advice) and whatever/whoever that was, was guiding me. It was telling me what to do (specifically to visualise my own room, try to picture myself sleeping? what?) and in what order. Then it said, “We have little time left. I’ll be waiting for you whenever you come back for help” and left. 2 minutes later, or something like that, Bob Monroe sent me back to being awake.
What was that??? Was I sleeping?? Need some advice, please. I kinda “had” this thought in the middle of all this that the Gateway Project helps me to face and overcome my fears, that was the creepy faces thing? And after that? Were those my own thoughts? Any advice would be greatly appreciated 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
By - just_the_anon
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